Wednesday, January 24, 2007
back from school . . today is quite a long day . . but kinda enjoy it . . still can't stop thinking of her . . i dont intend to stop too ! today we were dismissed from lesson at . . i forgot what time we were dismissed . . nevermind . . it doesn't matter . . so we were dismissed from lessons to go to WHAMPOA for a CIP trip to the handicap association . . i was very angry and pissed off by the fact that i can't go band and have to go for the CIP and by doing so i only manage to come for band for like an hour and only manage to see her face for a whilebefore she leave for piano . . it was quite sad to see people wheelchair bound . . anyway after the performance, i was glad to see some of the people smiled . . some cried too but it doesn't matter . . as long as they are happy . . i'm happy too . . on the way back to school . . had so much fun in the bus with eugene . amanda . bernice . benedict . azri and azrin . . once reached school . . its time for BAND ! . . i was walking with isaac and hoping that i could see her . . which I DID ! . . was so glad that she was still around . . i love her . . i do and i will always do . . always and forever . .
me Helmizar . .
scribbled at 4:44 AM
Saturday, January 20, 2007
its been a while since i post . . anyway . . finally my painkillers are finish . . now just have to bear the pain . . anyway . . i still love her so much . . still cant stop thinking of her . . she means so much to me . . i will do anything for her . . even if it takes my life . . i would rather die than being alone . . there is no life without her . . i love her so much . .
scribbled at 3:13 AM
Saturday, December 23, 2006
still with this endless attacks to the heart . . its getting worse day by day . . the pain is unexplainable . . still looking forward to having more conversations with her . . btw today isnt a working day as there was no slot for me . . wanted to work actually but i dont mind staying at home . . had fun playing guitar and games . . today was quite a fun day actually . . anyway christmas is coming and merry christmas to all . . day by day my painkillers get lesser and lesser and the pain is getting worse . .
me helmizar
scribbled at 11:52 AM
Thursday, December 21, 2006
today was a working day . . cant stop thinking about her thou . . anyway today was my first day at PMC . . plaza market cafe . . it was quite tiring but it was quite fun too . . the food looks delicious and tasty but . .what the heck . .i dont eat those food . . but quite a new experience . . anyway tmr will be working too so if theres anything pls call me . . ILOVEHERSOMUCH . .
scribbled at 9:08 AM
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
life comes at us from out of the darkness . . but when you come to think about it . . life comes rushing at you from out of the darkness . . but theres always someone in your life that you can count on . . always there is always someone . . no matter what race he/she is ? . . what religion . . there is always someone . . someone to count on . .
me helmizar
scribbled at 8:49 AM
Monday, December 18, 2006
i've been doing alot of thinking . . with me having this endless attacks to my heart every single day . . with this heart condition i'm having . . its so painful . . you cant breathe fully when the pain strikes . . you have to take short breathes . . it might be hypertrophic cardiomyopathy ( HCM ) or cardiovascular disease . . either way . . it involves the heart . . nah stop talking about heart . . anyway to me . . man are so busy with their lives working . . trying to get more money till most of them have forgotten what is important . . yes working and earning money is important but there are things that money can't buy . . such as love . . family . . trust . . all these are important too . . man have been working to get higher and higher . . trying to rise above his/her own colleagues . . get a better position in the company . . busy with their daily so called routines . . i know i talk much . . i am MAN too . .
me helmizar
scribbled at 11:53 PM
firstly . . this is my first ever official blog . . actually i wont get this blog without en qi's help . . thanks loads little kiddo . . she did everything for me . . i dont know what my blog will look like if its not because of her . . everything was done by her . . so please dont mind the girly words cos she's the one who did all of that . . haha . . just wanna post something out of the blue . .
me helmizar
scribbled at 11:08 AM
Saturday, December 16, 2006
yo helmizar here this is my first blog oh yeah
scribbled at 10:56 PM
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